A Day in the Life of the Shoe Maker...: March 2012

I didn't realize it's been TWO weeks since I've blogged, and my goal was at the VERY least to do this weekly, so...YIKES I have to catch up.

Two weeks ago I didn't lose a POUND...

I didn't gain a POUND...

I was a little discouraged, therefore I didn't think it would be wise for me to blog and show that negativity.

Then I got so busy, with life...working out...work...getting ready for my CRUISE...it's tornado season here in 'ole Bama and that put me back a couple of days via the no power and new cell phone :D

Last week I lost TWO lbs...WAHOO!

Although, I still have to remind myself WEEKLY...hey, DAILY that doing this the "right" way I'm not going to lose 7 lbs in one week. At times I get super frustrated, but I know that I will thank myself...for FOREVER.

But I'm still alive and going strong most days. And when I'm not, I have a great group of girls that support me no matter what. I can definitely say I wouldn't be here without God and my girls at the gym. It's kinda crazy, because we all see each other every day so we've all became pretty close.

The Girls from the gym on Katty's birthday before out Weight Loss competiton started.

SO I've had this inspiring Christian song in my head the past couple of days, its called "Never Going Back to Okay" by the Afters (who put on a great concert BTW). And it's crazy, because it's pretty much exactly what I need to be telling myself in the midst of this. Here's the lyrics:

It’s not the end but it feels like it is

I’m waking up like I’m back from the dead

I’m stepping out and it feels so free

But as long as I’m moving it’s alright

I feel alive and it hurts for a change

I’m looking back its hard to believe

That I was cool with the days that I wasted

Complacent and tasteless and bored

But that was yesterday

We’re never going back to ok

We’re never going back to easy

We’re never going back to the way it was

We’re never going back to ok

This discontent, like a slap in the face

A mediocre I’ve had enough of this place

This party’s over and I’m moving away

From the frills of your Beverly Hills

That was yesterday

We’re never going back to ok

We’re never going back to easy

We’re never going back to the way it was

We’re never going back to ok

We’re here to stay

This is our time

My only life

Our chance to live

To note: Today I lost FOUR pounds!! I couldn't believe it!! And did you know that puts me at 196 (yes, that means under 200 which was a huge deal for me).

Because I'm never going back to okay.

For years "okay" for me was a size 14, because afterall that is the average size of women in the US. So I was average, I was okay. I wasn't happy, I secretly loathed my sister, friends, and ladies that I knew because they could wear anything they wanted and eat anything they wanted and be a single digit pant size. I would agonize over buying a bathing suit (not sure that will ever change lol). And then college came and I moved on up into a size 16, but I was still "okay". Guys like curves, right? Haha These are the lies I used to tell myself.

But what do I know now???

God wants better for me than ~~okay~~. While I can guarantee that God doesn't care if I wear a bikini, God wants the following for all mankind: